Would you please tell me what should I do

Dear you, would you please give me the time to listen to me to have a good talk, these words I not speak face to face, the phone can not say it, qq space can not say it.
Only in such a let me feel safe place, then to talk about was saying.

Dear, we together 50 days, maybe this time is short, and the love of others than run up insignificant. But for me, it is the idea, career, family all of the change.

Used to think, I've been looking for one that I would like to for him to die, we live for love, as long as there is the other in, tube he do, tube he where to go. So, when all of the people are against us together of the time, I still costomers happy with you, every day in order to be with you in together happy happiness. Can look at you, can pull your hand, can be quiet sit by very sweet.

And then I found I become greedy, I hope you can like I love you love me, I began to measure our pay. Start capricious began to doubt. Sometimes, just a few sometimes, when I think you do not love me, I will resolutely say to you we break up, maybe you will confused, but at that moment, as long as you say you love me, I would have held you no longer leave. Because I know that I love you, but no security. And every time your tender will let me hesitate to.

Later, I believe you, I believe that you are willing to and I together. And then I started to worry about the future. This is also the reason people don't support us, yes, always don't want to hurt you, think you should be free of happy poet, but you always don't work, in order to be more with you, I also resigned from work, also did not start a new job. I started because such a state of unrest, the friends all say I changed.
So I think maybe when a stay-at-home mom and wife is very good also.

But, who support us two?

You said that the future is very good, I said I want to.

But a better future, I can't see.

Many times, I am at home to his brother, and said, I want to get married, I want to marry lyx.

Sometimes, I said to myself, have no future, or separate now, and tears fell down.

I think I'm crazy.